Here is a beautiful poem depicting the heart wrenching pain of losing a puppy bought from a not-so-reputable breeder: (posted with permission)
Into the Abyss ~ by Helen Rohan
I read the warnings never buy online... find a good breeder, you'll be fine.
I called a few just to ask, but no one had a litter
They wanted me to visit them, and for them to visit me
But I want one now, not next year, that's way too long for me
So I'll just look on puppyfind, and peek at nextdaypets
Oh look right here, two dozen ads, I can't believe my luck
This breeder must be good, they've be members for so long
And from what they say, their dogs are great, they are all from Champions
Rare colors for two hundred more, and with full breeding rights
All from the comfort of my couch, oh what a perfect night
I ordered one, they said that's great, you're now top of my list
I'll email you when pups are born, just send the money quick
They said she is an awesome mum, and produces lovely litters
the last few times, she'd had 12 pups and raised each one herself.
All they asked was a deposit, so I mailed my check that day
Oh wow, now I have a puppy, just need to wait the day.
I picked him up just past 6 weeks, yes what a joyous day.
No we don't test for anything, hey they're the best in the US of A.
Just pay us the money, and be off on your way
don't call we'll be busy, our eighth litter this year is on the way
But my puppy did seem tiny, but as cute as he could be
I fell in love on that first night, but something niggled me
A few weeks later I noticed something really odd
He kept circling around, and then staring into space
He wasn't doing really well, he didn't want to eat
He hardly played, and seemed quite weak, and just laid on my knee
I took him in to see a vet, and wondered what was wrong
And then the news was such a shock, my heart ripped out my chest.
All I heard was Liver Shunt, his body's shutting down
The best thing we could do for him would be to put him down.
No, No, No .. surely not, there must be something we can do
I sobbed, and sobbed, and held him close until his last heart beat.
He's gone they said, he's now at peace, be glad for him it's over
But I loved my pup, he was my world, which felt like it too was ending
Goodbye my pup, our time was short, I can't believe he's gone
This hurts so bad, to let him go, his life had not begun
The pain went on for days and weeks, I could not let it go
He was the dearest thing to me, and how I loved him so
I finally got up the nerve, to call and tell the breeder
But they never answered, not one call, not even one damn email
I think about him quite a bit, I'll never forget his eyes
The look he gave, the night he left will haunt me till I die.
I wonder if he's happy and enjoying life at the bridge
I hope one day he'll run to me so we can finally be as one.
So will I get another? yes but not just yet,
my heart is still too heavy, and my choices I regret,
I'm now talking to a breeder, whom I totally respect,
So maybe in a year or so, there will be one for me,
we'll just have to wait and see.